I will try to keep this basic...

I have 6 children (wasn't supposed to have ANY children due to progressively worsening, invading cervical cancer so I am VERY BLESSED w 6 wonderful children)...

In February 2013 I underwent an emergency partial hysterectomy by means of the new and "better" method...told it was the best way all around, less invasive, less bleeding and most importantly less recovery time. With 6 kids, hearing: "You'll be up and running after your kids within 4 weeks!" was HUGE for me (I'm very actively involved with my kids, family outings, bbqs, arts and crafts,etc.)

It turned into a living nightmare and honestly it still seems never ending. (It'll be 2 years next month.) Complications left and right, ER after ER, so many ct scans/MRIs/tests galore, everything falling apart, so much pain, so many problems...

In less than 2 years I have underwent a total of SEVEN "repair" surgeries (although it's more about improving my quality of life, the damage is all permanent). I still am pending more surgeries...

I now have a permanent colostomy, my bladder nerves and function was severed, the branch of nerves on the bottom of my spine was severed, deep vein thrombosis/fairly large blood clot lower right abdomen, mass in lower left abdomen, painful abdominal adhesions, my vision was drastically altered (blurry/double vision, color-distorted vision daily triggered by flashing lights and words on screen, great loss in peripheral vision), constant ringing/humming in ears, severe migraines with auras, SMAS (Superior Mesenteric Artery Syndrome, having to self-cath everyday, etc...

Becoming sick has changed my life drastically...not only am I in pain, greatly limited in what I can and can't do, taboo to a lot of doctors, considered high risk, too complicated, too complex, chronically ill...BUT I have learned to take absolutely NOTHING for granted. Not even the seemingly small and trivial and mundane. People stress and complain about the small things...like the dishes or laundry piled up...DONT stress about it! Be grateful, appreciative, feel blessed that you do HAVE those things! Clothes to wear, roof over your head, water and electricity TO run the washer, arms and hands to scoop the clothes, legs to walk them to the dryer, etc...

I really never really realized how much I unintentionally just TOOK for granted until my health was jeopardized, my family separated over and over for my hospital stays, til I WAS limited and struggling with such "simple" things.

I never cherished vision and eyesight until mine faltered and failed. I never thought about how many body functions we just go and do without real thought (like pooping and peeing...how often do you really THINK of that?)

I am very blessed to have Medicaid and they do pay for some of my colostomy and catheter supplies...but not all. Every month I have to spend an additional $150-250 out of pocket (a very shallow pocket, extremely limited income).

I have been moving forward, head held high (for my children), smile, keep motivated (my children ARE my motivation, THEY keep me going, struggling thru this battle, this ongoing nightmare), try my hardest to not let the small things/bad news bring me down...

I am struggling right now, terribly. My insurance has been put on hold, being reevaluated...therefore 3 months with no supplies delivered, paying 100% out of pocket. Bills are rolling over and adding up.

First my goal is to see if ANYONE would be willing to help. $5 here, $10 there...ANY and ALL help is HUGE and is GREATLY APPRECIATED (a box of 10 wafers is $90, a box of bags is another $90, catheters, etc...). But I'm not expecting $90 here and $90 there...seriously, $5/$10/$20, it DOES ADD UP. It would be HUMONGOUS to me and my family.

My next step is to GO GET PROFESSIONAL, COMPETENT MEDICAL CARE. I've been classified as too complex, too complicated, too critical for a LOT of specialists out here. Practically every single one I've gone to have advised me: "Go to the Mayo Clinic." Rochester, Minnesota is the closest to me. I am going to start petitioning/fundraising the funds needed to make that long NEEDED trip.

Please, find it in your heart to help me and my children.